I really don't like doubt.
A handful of people literally gave up everything to follow this man that they believed was the Messiah. He who never committed a crime was stolen away from them and murdered. Three days later one of those Jesus followers named Thomas saw the others, and they told him that Jesus was alive. They told Thomas how Jesus rose from the dead and was alive. Thomas said that he didn't believe them and wouldn't believe it unless he saw Jesus in person and touched him.
Honestly, I really empathize with Thomas. He was the only one who made sense and questioned that Jesus was really alive. Faith is a strange thing. Jesus followers are obsessed with loving Jesus and leading others to Him, but we've never seen Him in person.
I believe in Jesus for many reasons. I believe he is the God who made me and saved me. I have experienced his love and peace. I believe His Word is reliable and historically accurate. I believe that our souls and this universe cry out that there is a Creator and I am convinced that Creator is Jesus.
But sometimes I feel desperate for more clarity. I wish I could see my Jesus face to face for a moment and that he would confirm the truth that I believe. I feel bold and confident in Jesus often, but also feel like Thomas did doubting and confused.
A few days later Jesus physically appeared before his followers again, this time Thomas was there. And Jesus said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and look at my hands. Put your hand into the wound in my side. Don’t be faithless any longer. Believe!” “My Lord and my God!” Thomas exclaimed. Then Jesus told him, “You believe because you have seen me. Blessed are those who believe without seeing me.” - John 20:27-29
Faith and doubt will always be part of our lives and that's ok. Sometimes life leaves me confused, yet I look to Jesus and trust that one day my faith will become sight as I see him face to face.❤🙏